Domino Effect
a cumulative effect produced when one event
initiates a succession of similar events
I thought about it all day and I knew that when I had a
quiet moment what I was going to do. After work, I sat in a dark car and I made
the call, with my heart beating through my chest. “Hello” she answered and I
began my apology.
Lack of control over a situation had caused me to break. I
unleashed anger and caused an argument between two people that didn’t need an excuse
to argue. It was my belief that she was purposely doing something and to be
honest, I still believe that it was happening, because it stopped after the argument.
Never the less, I still owed her an apology, as I had no grounds to falsely
accuse. I wrote about the victory of that moment in my journal and I thought I
would share parts of it.
11/08/2009
A domino? This week
God used me as the first domino. A simply apology, not so simple when it’s
given to someone who owes me, and my family a lot of apologies. But, still,
conviction and obedience and I feel great. No anger, not waves of torment, just
relief, peace and joy. Hallelujah!
God told me He used me
this week as a domino, the first apology! To which I chuckled, Lord you use me
a lot as the first domino. Just think of
the benefits of being the first person to fall on your knees….. I fell first,
to start a long line of knees hitting the ground. The loving hand of Jesus, Abba,
reaching down to gently guide me to my knees. The second, third, fourth, and so
it goes, dominoes knocked down by the first, each harder, and more weight as
each one piles up. Something God gently started in silence lays hard, fast, and
heavy as each domino falls….louder and louder, until each domino involved fall.
The dominoes are people
and the falling is obedience to forgiveness. Sin holds us in stubborn disobedience
and as each person refuses to surrender, another domino is added.
I remembered when I wrote this being so sure that all of the
dominoes were going to fall, immediately. Isn’t that the way you see it happen
with the game? Truth is, sometimes your domino falls but something prevents the
other one from falling immediately. That’s okay, because when we pray, God
listens. Just remember, He also gives us free will, he can’t force us to our
knees to pray, only guide us. If we refuse, the sin remains. Eventually you
learn to live with the guilt of that sin and it just feels normal, you may even
make excuses and blame it on others. Deep down, you know the truth and so does
God.
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